Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Can anyone give me a helping hand? You will just have to push me from behind while I place a knife at my heart facing the wall. Or who know black magic? Can give me a blow and I will just disappear in this world and not come back.
I am feeling really down right now. I keep telling myself to be strong and every time I feel like crying, I just wish you were here to lend me your shoulder. But it’s impossible I know. Maybe I love to daydream so much that it causes the miserable in me. I love to dream about the impossible things although I know it wouldn’t happen, but I just love it! But what I thinking is also not hard for men to get what I mean what. Whatever, I am dead. Nothing can touch my heart anymore. I know how to laugh, how to cry, how to eat, how to shit is learn from human begins de. But I don’t know how it really works.
"You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you."
I feel like changing school. But there is one way to stop me from thinking of him. But if I like that I think many people will say I am childish. The way is HATE HIM LIKE HELL! Curse and curse and curse everyday. Haha. Relax...I will not do it on you anyway. I will just continue loving you until it is time for me to go (meaning: as long as possible, not dead!).
Today got N-level result. Was not really that good. But I will try to strike next year. Cos NaNa says she can accompany for 1 year if I go her school. Haha. Kidding. No NaNa also still got ChongWei. Actually wanted to catch movie today but him and him la. So I will have to take MC on Thursday to meet up for today. So just now pass some photos to Dear and meet Yao & Kenneth at food court. Then when I want to pass him the chalet’s money, he said don’t give now Cos he scare kana rob. LOL. And we played pool after that. Then was struggling on the way home. It FLOODED and on super heavy rain!
Chat with my MeowMeow once I reached home. She said something fiercely to me. Love hurt...I believe. But always look at the bright side. Anyway I got dumped recently. You know...There more thing and happenings ahead for us...don’t say die .Commit suicide only lead to regrets. C’mon u really want just end your life now? Think and reflect, killing yourself can forget everything but it can’t solve problem. You will only cause your loved ones to be sad esp. your only mum. I know. But I am feeling so miserable la. Hmm perhaps I can only say love is selfish; guys are just sweet lies horny bastard. Girl, take it easy. You still young. You will meet someone even better than him. Maybe u can’t blame him too...he still a young boy though. He doesn’t know what he doing. Haha. But I still can’t get over it.
Then HaoLin come in. Typical guys when they have take advantages and had fun, bored than change. At this age they won’t really whole-hearted to you. Or what u think he make you his wife ar. Come on, face up the reality lar. Don’t waste time la. Time is money. I can only say…SHIT MAN (not all man)! Haha.
GangYi’s next. Is still chatting. ((= I think he is not that okay too. I wish you all the best here. Cos I can’t find your link. LOL.
Lastly, all the best to everyone! YOU! TAKE CARE huh!
