BAD DAY! This morning had my English paper. 1st paper is the compo and report. Can say is quite easy. But the sad thing is...I flunk paper 2 la. 80marks just gone away like this. Everybody said is easy. But to me is very difficult lor. Then didn't have the mood to do the history paper later on. Sit there cry 1 hour. Den last 30mins do history. Hahas. Cos the the hall is too cold until to cry out (lame*) so do history a lil bit lor. Cry what lei? Hmmm...got many things bah. Scared really fail English den might as well don take e rest of the paper. What if really fail le, go where? No is going to support me. No cert no 5Cs man. Haiis...so stress. Even before history Hubert come and talk to me. Ask me many things and also answered many things. Maybe the things we talk also got took part in the crying-history paper. But what hurt most is I told mummy that I think I could not make it to Sec5. You neo wad she said?
"You lose face la. You see HuiYing so clever. Studied in special stream now in JC you still in Sec4 (same age as me). Then you prepare to give me 500 bucks."
Then my heart suddenly sank la. Sank so deep until using sucking machine also cannot suck back. I thought she will say somthing nice but at least nicer than this. And I hold back my tears and say maybe there's a miracle-smilingly. Maybe is retribution lo. Who ask me did so many bad things. Then now she on the fone with god-ma criticizing my English. How I wish I could turn back the time where I still in N(T) and did not met him. Then continue Nitec to Higher Nitec...then blah blah...
From English paper finish until now he didn't even send me a message. Not even a good-luck message for history.
Just came out from the bathroom. In there, it seen that everything is opposing me. This drop there drop. And also had a good cry there. I promise myself to do well for the rest of paper and wait for e result. Meanwhile earn as much as I can and get myself a private sch in case of any unfortunate. I can live without you!
